It appears that everything I’ve tried to keep my personal blog going has fizzled out.  I’ve tried schedules, I’ve tried pictures, I’ve tried everything.  While I’m not going to say this particular blog is dead, I’ve certainly developed a cynical attitude towards the medium in general.  The month (or year, for that matter) off has been nice because I haven’t had to think: “Hrm,what should I write today? I have to write something!!”

Dear Public Diary:

Fuck you.

Close your eyes and move on if you’re not ready to face this reality: The art of the personal web blog is dying a sad death.  Since I started a web blog in 2003 (Jesus, has it been almost six years?) I’ve come to the following conclusion: Internet addicts keep personal blogs when lonely, in need of vindication, and/or to convince themselves (and others) that everything is okay.   The more contented and/or involved you are with real life, the less you feel the need catalog the events to nobody in particular.  That’s not to say the 2003 version of me was a wreck, but I’m too satisfied with my world right now to regurgitate events in paragraph form.

The personal weblog is a self-serving me-me-me-me-me fantasy world; a platform where I write a story where I can be the hero, villian, and victim all at once.  I agree that it’s a good way for distant friends to keep an eye on things, but on a day-to-day level, nobody is better off knowing what I did last weekend - nor I theirs.  When I write an intentionally cryptic post, I’ve lost 99% of the readers, so what’s the point?  If I use names, places and events, how can I expect somebody outside my inner circle to follow along?  When I use this platform to take passive-aggresive shots, I’m basically saying it’s not worth it to confront issues (petty or not) in person, but certainly worth it to air grievances to a mostly sympathetic audience.

I guess what I’m saying is that by focusing solely on myself (as is the usual case with these posts), I’m leaving everybody on the outside and only I benefit.  Sure that may be fine for some but if you keep looking inward, you stop looking outward. That being said, I’m not declaring this blog dead and I will keep writing stories from my universe.  I just won’t bother you with the inward details unless it’s big or something.  Stay tuned?  Yes Indeed.